I have spent the morning going through old photos and long threads of texts with both Henry and my sister Jenny who passed on October 18 and October 20 respectively. Somehow as I was uploading pictures onto my computer I was reminded of a beautiful chant I learned at kirtan camp several years ago. I decided to see if I could find a version of it on YouTube. It took a bit of searching but eventually I found it. It’s so beautiful. It seems like one of those chants that could easily make you weep- maybe I’ve just wept enough tears in the last two weeks to last me for a while. Anyway, all I felt when I began listening to it was the sweetest softening of the heart and so much peace.

After my mother died I rented an apartment in a beautiful old Victorian house in Newport called “Heartsease”. The name was so perfect and appropriate for the time. That is what I feel when I hear this chant.