I slept really well last night and woke up here feeling like I had finally landed. When Paul saw me this morning he said, "Oh, you've arrived!" Yes, I've arrived.

We went to see tulips- fields and fields full of tulips, rows and rows- wide swatches of deep reds, brillliant yellow, pale pink, deep rose, mixes of swirling pink and white with pale green running through them. And so much more. Double orange, scarlet and yellow blossoms that were so intoxicatingly fragrant I thought I might just lay down in them and never get up, the way Dorothy did in the Wizard of Oz in the field of poppies. The clouds were deep and dark but the sun kept shining through and hitting the edges of trees. At one point after walking through rows and rows of tulips we got back in the car and within a minute it started to hail. We didn't see it coming and made it just in time!

The sad part is that I have taken tons of pictures but can't seem to access them on my iPad to put them in this blog. There is no iPhoto on here which is what I use to upload them from my computer. I have no idea if there is a solution.

The most exciting sound I heard to day? Birds singing in the trees next to acres of tulips! I also heard some music by Ludivico Einaudi which was very beautiful and I am posting here. Enjoy!

A few days ago I made a decision around something I was wavering about. I recommitted to going to Holland even though no one has signed up for my sound healing workshop. I was feeling very nervous about it, basically in regard to spending money with the possibility of not making enough money to make it financially viable. The discussion I had with my friend Paul, who is hosting me along with his partner Jane, was about going out on a limb and the fact that when we do that some of the best stuff happens. As Gabrielle Roth once said (possibly in reference to something else, but it fits), "That's when things get really juicy."

Just now I read Seth Godin's blog post for today. It feels very applicable.

Reckless abandon (is neither)

It's not reckless, because when we leap, when we dive in, when we begin, only begin, we bring our true nature to the project, we make it personal and urgent.
And it's not abandon, not in the sense that we've abandoned our senses or our responsibility. In fact, abandoning the fear of fear that is holding us back is the single best way not to abandon the work, the pure execution of the work.
Later, there's time to backpedal and water down. But right now, reckless please.

Once I made a clear decision I felt relieved and unafraid. I have gone from feeling nervous and anxious to very excited.

Plus, as it turns out spring is late this year in Holland, as it has been here, and apparently the tulips are only just starting to come out- which means I will be there at the peak of tulip season! That in itself will be worth the price of admission.

Photo by An Maria C